I was going to write about style. I was going to write about my changing shape, buying second hand, my new capsule- this popped out instead.
“You are being presented with a choice: evolve or remain. If you choose to remain unchanged, you will be presented with the same challenges, the same routine, the same storms, the same situations, until you learn from them, until you love yourself enough to say ‘no more’, until you choose change.
If you choose to evolve, you will explore what lies outside the comfort zone, you will awaken to love, you will become, you will be. You have everything you need. Choose to evolve. Choose love.”
I can feel a change. A change from within, happening slowly but surely. I am awakening and hibernating all at once.
I have let go of so much these past few months. Clothes that no longer fit, ideas I had about myself, old concepts of who I thought I should be, worries of pressures or judgments from others.
I have chosen, instead, honesty. Radical, unwavering self-love and forgiveness. I have chosen rest and love and fun and freedom.
I am evolving.
More flexibility and forgiveness, less judgment and rules. Less black and white, more color and shades in between.
I am not responsible for anyone’s energy but my own. I do not have to carry the worry and pain of others. I do not have to give of myself if I do not have anything to give.
Boundaries are love. Breathing is love. Not apologizing for healthy limits is love.
Cultivating your best self across all areas of your life is where the meaning is. Our society will have you think that work and your highest ambitions are what bring you joy, I have not found this to be true. I am at my best at work when I am full of love and sleep and cuddles from my baby.
Return to you. Remember the light and love and true tender self that has always been with you. She is calling to you, hoping you will hear her. Hoping you will come back to her, back to who you have always been.