I have anxiety. Not “I get stressed out sometimes” anxiety. The type where I think so much about situations from the past or the future that my whole day is dark and sad because the past’s troubles rob me of today’s peace.
The kind of anxiety where I cry myself to sleep or see something heartbreaking and immediately can’t breathe. Or I can breathe but my chest feels like its on fire and I worry my throat will close.
Sometimes this happens at work, but most of the time it happens when I’m at home. Anxiety robs me of my peace.
Before simplifying my life I would hurl my anxiety at people. Before stepping back and looking at myself and my life, I would run around and clean and scrub and organize and yell at the people that got in my way.
But recently, I’ve seen how beautiful and simple my life is. My home is full of love and support and room to grow, and I don’t want to let anxiety in anymore.
Now that I have the space in my mind and my heart (which used to be taken up by things and stuff) I’m going to use it to feel better. To be better.
If you are anxious or worried or fearful I want you to know you don’t have to be. We don’t realize how much the clutter and the negative relationships in our lives weigh on us. We don’t recognize how heavy a burden we carry until we let go.
We can do hard things. We can breathe and take things days by day.
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